Name: used to use
Duration: P00H04M27S
Description: originally written as a poem before embarking on an alcohol free path. This track is a reflection on the cause and effect of vices and how sometimes it feels like our whole life, despite even when we are trying, can only be navigated through anything but ourselves.

used to use

from lunch (mental) break (down) by Maladaptive Mistress

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originally written as a poem before embarking on an alcohol free path. This track is a reflection on the cause and effect of vices and how sometimes it feels like our whole life, despite even when we are trying, can only be navigated through anything but ourselves.

lyrics

Sometimes I stop and think
of all the chemicals I put in my body
used to use x4
to feel something else
but now I use to not feel myself

Now I'm searching for memories
and words that don't come as quick
wondering if it's aging
or all the drugs I've done
and when did I stop being a kid?

I still need my mom
I still need suburban sunsets
and I want to know
if I'll never not feel like
a terminal illness

well I used to use
used to use x3

Sometimes I stop and think
of all the chemicals in my brain
how they got there
and how I'm the same
despite new perspectives
and unpacking sessions

well I used to use
used to use

well I used to use that
and now I use this
I used to use that
and now I use this

use x5

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from lunch (mental) break (down), released May 7, 2020

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Maladaptive Mistress Brooklyn, New York

Person from New York making music because why the hell not? New to sharing creative endeavors, but boy does it feel good to be vulnerable and free.

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